Getting off psych meds follow up story:
At one point I felt like I’d gotten to a point where my psych meds were helpful and weren’t causing me any side effects. Then I finally realized that maybe it was causing me sleep problems. It used to take me 1-2 hours to fall asleep every night and the nights I couldn’t sleep at all I realized it was because I’d forgotten to take my Geodon.
But then nights would come and I’d feel those withdrawal symptoms and I was sure I’d taken the med. I’d check my pill minder and it was on target, plus I remembered actively taking the med, like noticing the amount of water in the cup or where the pill had been laying on my palm or something. So this helped me decide to make a final push for getting off psych meds.
Two days after I took the last dose I felt better immediately. It’s been 10 months now and I still feel a lot better. Once the Geodon had cleared my system, I could sleep again! I was finally was able to get to sleep in 10 – 15 minutes instead of 1-2 hours. It was like a miracle. It still seems that way.
Once I realized that my trauma issues were causing my disconnection from reality instead of an “illness,” I stopped getting scared whenever the hallucinations came. My friend Ken Braiterman talks about how he “cured me of psychosis by using distress language.” This was the last leap I needed to take to finally get off medications. I saved the Geodon for a while but finally decided to donate it.
Donating my Geodon to celebrate getting off psych meds:
There’s a nonprofit in Kansas City that accepts donations of excess meds and helps get them to people who need them, so I called and told them I had about $4,000 worth of Geodon to donate. They said, “Oh, we’ll take that. We’re always in need of that kind of stuff.” I kept making appointments with them and then getting too busy to donate.
Finally, yesterday, on a rainy day, I had about five errands in that neighborhood and strung them all together and got up there. I got in just as they were closing and told the person, “I don’t think these solve the problem, but someone may think they do, so maybe they can use them.”
The social worker in charge said, “Yes, I’ve seen a lot through my social work experience, too, and I don’t think they help much either. I think there’s a lot more to it than medications, some people’s lives get really complex.”
That and the Geodon gave me zits.